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Tuesday, May 27, 2008

11:15 AM

Oooohkay. I'm ready to blog about Gideon (in a non-sarcastic, non-flaming way).

So. Right. About Gideon. When I hear all those mean things about Gideon, I would say, "You guys very mean 'know," because sometimes it's what I think. We are very mean to Gideon. I would admit, I'm pretty mean to Gideon, even now, though not as much.

But we are mean. Because that's the way it is. There has got to be one person that no one likes.

I've been that way before. I can emphathise, but seriously, honestly, I don't want to. Maybe it's selfishness, but ask anyone. Who wants to be unpopular and disliked?

Back to Gideon. I think he's immensely dense. He has an extraordinarily backward sense of how social groups work, as well as an almost retarded way of relating to other people. He shows zero communication skills, and his worst flaw, amongst the many he has, is that he has a false reality that no one believes in. He firmly believes in many things that do not apply in the real world.

He believes that effort is always equivalent with results. Not true.
He believes that he can change things, with his set of skills from self-help books and leadership sabbaticals. Let me tell you, no. Leadership goes by experience.
He believes that he is more than what he is. That is, he has a giant ego to match his size. No, no, no.

He's probably very puzzled why everyone is so against him. And by the rate that things are going, he's gonna become the next L, screwing up his section, but having no real defiance because he's just too good-boy. He's going to end up a bigger loser, trying to correct things in his own way, when better solutions exist. With such a twisted sense of the band and the world at large, Gideon needs to grow up.

But it doesn't have to be that way. Because when I hear those mean remarks, I fear that it's just going to be a vicious cycle. It's not fair. And I don't want to have a dysfunctional SL. Gideon is hardworking, and I believe that if we can modify what we say, he can get the task done. Who cares what he believes? We all have different ideals. As long as he's capable, I don't have to like him/hate him, like what Huiyao says. I'll respect him as a capable, responsible SL.

I won't say mean things about him anymore. I'll hope that he comes back soon, because we need a tuba player, and we need a tuba SL. If someone is talking mean things about Gideon, I won't join in. I hope others will do the same, but I don't impose that. It's a personal choice.

If there comes a day where he can finally grow up, I'll be glad. But meanwhile, I'll treat him as someone I need, not as a friend, but someone to fulfill my duties and his duties. We all have work to do.

He's a band member. If you love band, why not show him a little of that love?

signed, jiasheng

19th Sept
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