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Thursday, March 27, 2008

8:01 PM

Today is a sad day. Everyone is sad.

I woke up late (because I slept at 2 studying Jap) and yelled at the cat stalking outside my door. It always does that, waiting for my brother to feed it, but I swear that if I wasn't the nice guy I think I am, I would have totally stomped the cat flat and tied it to the middle of the elevator door to let it be squished repeatedly.

Then I met Edwin on the bus, who wasn't bad to me (he dozed off after me and I resisted poking him awake) but I still sulked.

The band people were nice to me and at least listened to me crap.

Chinese was stupid because I STILL CAN'T FIND MY FILE AND ALL MY HOMEWORK IS INSIDE. LeeWC wanted the worksheet in today, but I am just too irritated to photocopy and redo. So I'm just waiting for her to scold me.

Then it was Lit. Usually my favourite subject, today it was just sucked. LohWL spent half the lesson scolding people who didn't do their reflections. Then she hailed at us for a while, obviously very disappointed and hurt and angry, then stormed out.

During Physics Lab lesson Yap Shinn was noticeable sad. He didn't even smile once. When I thanked him for helping me with the apparatus, he just zonked out and said, "What?" I repeated my thanks for 3 times before he got it. Then he was like, "Welcome," blankly, and walked off.

Even the green plate canteen auntie is sad. She looks depressed while she scooped up my potatoes. She didn't even hear my cheerful "Thank you auntie!"

The RI girl I met on 156 was teary-eyed like someone dumped her but it's probably an eye infection.

You know what? I think I desperately try to brighten people's day up, but it doesn't work this way. Just hope they cheer up soon.

***

Yes I am officially pissed about my file. If it's not going to appear soon I'll use every blog link I can get and tag on everyone's blog, "HAVE YOU SEEN MY FILE?! HUH?! HUH?!"

***

I need to confess. I'm sorry to everyone I'm disappointing.

Today, for the first time in weeks, or precisely 5 and a half weeks, or 11 lessons, or 22 hours, or 3 chapters, 1 CA and 1 composition, I went for 3rd Lang. Yes. I ponned for that long.

For no apparent reason.

It was easy to say that I need to skip because it was test week, then sabbactical week because I deserve a break, then blahblahblah.

It's my fault. I let myself slip.

The last time I ponned for that long, it was for some urgent matters. But now it's nowhere near anything urgent. It's my fault.

I thought I could catch up, because I eventually did, for the last time. I thought they would only cover 2 chapters. But no. Now I've missed everything.

It's my fault.

Sensei was dramatically, but reasonably shocked to see me.

"Jyasen san?!" She actually gave an audible gasp, like I was back from the dead.

But now I am determined. I don't care how busy I'm going to be, I'm gonna catch up. Mark my words.

***

Now I know how people I tease feel.

I know how horrible it feels to be toyed with.

Like you're a puppet held by strings which you don't control.

I don't like this game.

signed, jiasheng

19th Sept
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