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Friday, December 14, 2007

10:41 PM

osaka says:
why wasn't I informed about the exco meeting tmr?
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
you weren't?
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
well good thing i mentioned it on my blog
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
because yes! 9am tmr
osaka says:
does it mean that edwin thinks that I'm not required at tmr's meeting?
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
of course not
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
it's supposed to be exco meeting
osaka says:
though I would love to skip the painting and all the other shit
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
you're distracted
osaka says:
what?
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
huh? oh. nothing.
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
psychoanalysis on my part
osaka says:
are you really gay?
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
o.o you really think i am?
osaka says:
well maybe
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
read the post properly. i'm almost insulted
osaka says:
homosexuality shouldn't be something to be ashamed about
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
but i guess i should be honored for being able to...convince my readers(?)
osaka says:
I don't know... I got a lot of mixed messages
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
insulted in the sense that people misunderstand my points
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
uh, don't tell me you don't know that gaiety also means happiness?
osaka says:
I know that
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
great.
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
o.o but never mind.
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
just look at my stats xP 38
osaka says:
though you could be gay, you never kniw
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
seem like my publicity stunts work after all
osaka says:
*know
osaka says:
maybe your next publicity stunt should be an official statement about your homosexuality
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
o.o
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
funny. maybe st will report it
osaka says:
nah they don't much about this. unless of course you have gay sex
osaka says:
*don't care
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
o.o
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
"student proclaims to be virgin gay"
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
but i think it's very likely
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
if wikipedia is to be believed with its statistics
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
with so little gays around, it must be quite hard to find gays
osaka says:
you can count gays
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
count?
osaka says:
few gays
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
huh i don't get it
osaka says:
with so little gays around, it must be quite hard to find gays
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
OH
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
ok.
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
fine. countable nouns
osaka says:
that sounds funny. gays are countable
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
so are lesbians by the way
osaka says:
hmm well yes
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
y'know, initially i thought you're striking back for my emo tag
osaka says:
haha. I've replied already.
osaka says:
no I sincerely concerned
osaka says:
because homosexuality is frowned upon in many societies
osaka says:
*I'm
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
lol! i find it quite amusing. and if i'm gay, how would it help by you asking blatantly.
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
i figure some people are actually closeted.
osaka says:
yup
osaka says:
erm if you admitted to being gay I would like to know how you would convey this information to your parents
osaka says:
because personally I think that is pretty devastating for a parent
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
o.o
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
uhm, if i ever got the chance to be able to do so i'll inform you
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
but interesting concept
osaka says:
it's interesting. I never got a chance to actually know a gay.
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
hey me too
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
just that we read pinkistheblog
osaka says:
are you against the criminalisation of gay sex?
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
nope
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
i think they're poor things enough
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
they're discriminated, and ridiculed, and looked down on.
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
and they can't have sex?
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
that's tragic.
osaka says:
erm ok I think this conversation has gotten sufficiently uncomfortable
osaka says:
that's all I wanted to know
osaka says:
bb
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
o.o
jiasheng;coruscation/ says:
cya then.

Actually after talking to Bo Dong I felt guilty because what if other people misinterpreted my post? What if they actually like me and now they don't? That's so tragic.

(Though pessimistically speaking it doesn't make a difference.)

Also I think it'll be insulting to a gay if he reads some of my previous posts. I think I subconsciously conform to the norms of society and end up writing homophobic stuff. And I don't like this, seeing how they're people deserving of humane treatment too.

I always found those people being neutral about gays kind of cheesy, when they give comments like "Oh I think gays shouldn't be judged because of their orientation and blahblahblah..." because it really does sound kind of lame. And now I'm the one doing it.

People like us probably tread a fine line between supporting homosexuality and being fearful that we'll be seen as homosexuals. That's why I keep seeing the work 'neutral' pop up. It's like, I don't mind gays, but oh my god, don't come near me, you are so wrong. Figures.

It's a little like racial oppression. It's an identity thingy. And it's so sad that majority rules the world. If you're different you're wrong. Strange place we live in, eh.

I guess I'm still relatively confident in myself and my sexuality to talk about this issue. But I think I need to close this topic, since people (see above) do get uncomfortable and I have to stop entertain girls asking me if I'm really gay because if I am then they'll have to start looking again.

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Sorry. Blatant lie. One last thing about gays I've been asked and pestered about:
"What do you think of gays?"

Official statement: If we're talking about lesbians, mmmmm. If male gays, I'm fine with them around, but if they want to make out, please go somewhere where I can't see you. (This refers to *******, ***** and ******.)

signed, jiasheng

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