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Tuesday, December 04, 2007

1:00 PM

animus

Too much to name. But not backstabbers, I LOVE BACKSTABBERS.

Urban dictionary says:

1. Backstabber
114 up, 8 down

People who you think are friends but then they attempt in causing your downfall.

Dominic is a frickin' backstabber.

Why do people hate backstabbers? And why is the hatred so widespread?

I don't get it. I mean, why is the most common item in the "Hated" list always the Backstabber? Does that mean they have been backstabbed? Then that's a lot of people being backstabbed! Either there are plenty of backstabbers abound, or they are repeat offenders.

What constitutes a Backstab?

Is it a betrayal? A tip-off? A thoughtless comment? Maybe.

Okay, so I am the well-known backstabber, I guess. But the reason why I don't feel so much of a hatred towards BSers is because I never really felt necessary to lay blame on someone else when most of time it's still my fault anyway. And I find that most of the time, those backstabbed are either at fault or really stupid.

It's not like I've not been backstabbed before. I remember that time when the whole flaming saga thing was on and because I ~~was~~ am on really bad terms with Jiexuan, people starting guessing that I was the one who backstabbed him. I didn't really know until a friend told me that another friend (stop giving me the looks. I know it sounds stupid. I don't want to name names.) suggested that I was the one who did it, and somehow it all fits into the puzzle and there I was in the heat of events I had been trying to avoid.

(Anyway, this story is really a BS story in a BS story. Figures.)

Yes, I felt hurt and maligned and really dragged into. And of course, betrayed. How could he? I trusted him as a friend and he was out there with his social cliques (which I once belonged to) and suggesting things that I would do. The worst part is he continued to interact with me like great friends and oh everything is okay I'll stand by you.

I'm pretty sure if he's reading this, he wouldn't know what I'm talking about. I'm not even know it's true, I just heard (another cliche). But it's over. And I've given up.

Still, I think most of it is my bad. I'm an extremely difficult person to like, and so I've threw my towel in about being amiable. So mostly I don't confide in people anymore. It's getting tiring.

Backstabbers don't backstab, after all. They just make you realize how people are all the same in due time. Just wait and see.

Postscript: Those whom I backstabbed? If I've not apologized, sorry.

***

Anyway, back to the original topic before I lapsed into contemplation.

The list of things that annoy me/make me want to run in the opposite direction:

1) V-necked shirts
Well, figures! The top of the list is the infamous V-necked shirt which I've completely abandoned. The animosity began during the 3rd p5camp when I had the insanity to wear one of them and by the end of the second day, I was notoriously gay. What's with V-necks anyway? Originally I thought they actually look great. But I was totally oblivious to weird stares until the girls kindly informed me on the gaiety of that particular shirt. Yep so it's condemned. But I still think it's not fair! It only looks gay on me.

Does he look gay to you?

Apparently I'm not macho enough to wear one.

2) Nagging parents
I'm not a good boy. Let's face it. I hate my parents sometimes. Maybe a little more than I love them. I had this dream that I had a gun, and I saw this chocolate seller and my parents. Then somehow I had to shoot one of them and I shot my parents.

Well what do you expect me to do? Shoot the chocolate seller? Then how do I get my chocolates?

Of course I could have shot the chocolate dude and stole his chocolates and shared it with my parents, but that would be immoral. (Immoral has a different definition when you shoot your parents in a dream, I think.)

3) Unreasonable people
Sometimes my parents fall under this category. But other people occupy this place, too. Like the auntie who dresses up as nun and sells tissue paper (or not at all, and expect us to donate on account of her hideous looks) when I'm halfway through my laksa. It's irritating. Normally I'll just wave her away. If she sticks to the ground and refuses to leave, then ahha, the following conversationless conversation ensues.

Me: Sorry, no thanks.
Her: (silently vigilant, refusing to budge until I pay up)
Me: (looks up from my laksa and stare at her)
Her: (stares back)
Me: (continues my laksa and slurp it noisily)
Her: (stares)
Me: (leaves table)
Her: (stares)

4) Humorless people
Because I hate people like that. Seriously. Humor is essentially a humane thing, and if you can't even smile at my nonsensical jokes, oh how I hate you.

5) Politics
And I mean the politics that occur in an organization. It's stifling. Luckily the band situation isn't that bad. If you must know, that's probably why I didn't want to join any councils and stuff. a) I think the hci leadership realm is pathetic, and b) it must be rife with politics.

6) Egoistic people
I've been called ego by a certain someone. Not that kind of jocular banter between friends, but someone who told me, "You better tone down your ego. It's irritating." Of course, that person is also the biggest immature brat I've ever seen and his head has also swelled so much that if I pop it with a needle, his airy brains would explode all over the world.

7) Superficial people with no substance
I'm still fine with people who boast because they can afford to. But for someone who thinks his section is superior and scores disgustingly in theory and practical, I'm sorry, the truth proves itself.

8) Bottled-up people
I'm not really against people who hide their feelings. It's understandable. But it's also infuriating having to guess oh did I hurt his/her feelings? So let's all be truthful, okay?

9) Hypocritical people
This goes to those schools who proclaim environmental friendliness and goes on to print more worksheets for us.

10) Accomplished people
Because I'm so jealous, really.

Anyone noticed I hate people alot? Well, food for thought.

signed, jiasheng

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