blog/enigma

Sunday, September 02, 2007

7:57 PM

Song: I'm still stuck to Nobody's Home until someone sends me I Will Be (which is one emo song to another, but hey, cut your wrists today!)
Word: solecism \SOL-uh-siz-uhm\, noun:
1. A nonstandard usage or grammatical construction; also, a minor blunder in speech.
2. A breach of good manners or etiquette.
3. Any inconsistency, mistake, or impropriety.

Actually, I'm starting to feel the futility of putting the words of the day if I don't use them. Therefore I shall try to inject some stupendous and bombastic vocabulary so even less people would visit this blog. (0-1
This blog is an epitome of solecism.
Anyway, the Namly Park event was alright, we just played in the playground. Somehow, the teachers are under the illusion that we played well (oh, Mr. Tharman too) so I shall attribute it to Qifann's long-distance hypnosis.
Oh, one thing that I discover today is that hwachong students actually produce works of fine literature. Especially iSparkians with their distinct nolinking and inane theories and whatdotheycallthat, ah, the sparkslang.
Speaking of iSpark, I stalked one home today. Ahaha I was mingling (This is a PRO concept by Bodong, go ask him) with the Sec1s when I had this epiphany that yes, I should stalk some sec1 home today and tada, I ended up getting lost and wandering around their ohmygodish big and rich estate and got chased by some bloodhound and basically loitering in their amazing maze of mazes.
I think the wealthy like to play games like these so the poor robbers would have to carry out their operation by helicopters.
In any case, that sec 1 actually got his mum to fetch me out to the bus stop, after giving me chrysanthemum tea at his house. I don't have to mention how imposing and incredibly malu I felt. But let's let that go.
To the point of that sec1, it isn't that hard to guess so I shall cultivate a healthy culture of mind games and exercise for the brain that died in some history lesson. But that sec1 is, in my unimportant opinion, seriously kawaii (not to mention rich. omgish rich.) so I shall probably be labelled as a pedophile or something.
Actually, the above was just some rantings and random thoughts. Oh, add one more: change blogskin! You can skip the section below because it's emo.

***

Sometimes when I'm by myself I like to have some conversation with myself. By that I don't mean lunatic babbling (fine, sometimes maybe) but something like viewing a picture or photo. I look down deep into a scene where I see myself doing things and saying words. Then I start to thinking and ask myself: is this what I want to be?
I always thought, everyone has a right to the pursuit of happiness. But what exactly is it? Perhaps being a self-labelled free-spirited person, my idea of being happy is being without restrains and just being myself and being loved by all the people around me.
However, the more I view shots of myself, the more enemies I realized I've made. Friends left quietly. Comrades I've betrayed and betray me. Seniors with passive looks and seething hatred. People I've hurt die away from my sight. Somehow, I find myself very destructive.
I don't know if I want this. On one hand, I don't-I know I could be so much more likeable and not like-this. But if I were to change myself, I can't help but feel a deep sense of betrayal to myself. I cannot abide by the proper rules. Maybe selfishly, I just want to be who I am.
"The problems with teenagers are that some times they think they can do everything, but at other times they can do nothing."
I don't know. Really.

signed, jiasheng

19th Sept
hci
band/euphonium
doodler
blogger

it takes a while for this section to load x) a long while.

blah, the cbox gives the game away.

facils
Sheila
Xinni
Serene
Jolyn
Weiqi
Chloe
Shermaine
Nicholas
Xinyuan
~~Jovina~~
Rebecca
hci
Edwin
BuPedofan
Brandon
Chin Seng
Weiqi
Zong Xian
Lionel
Zong Chen
Jiehan
Zhengyu or
Zhengyu or
Zhengyu
Mark
Zhenyang
Bo Dong
Jiami ng
Seanchia
Jason
Qi Fan
Huiyao
Tee Zhuo
Jeremy
Po En
Jie Xuan
Yong Yao
Bo Jun
Bo Xiang
Walter
Samuel
Our Gid
Bryan
Henry
Friends/Others
Hciband
SixAyeOhFive
PcpsP5Camp
Sylvia
Hanying
Qiya
Duxuan
Yvonne
Verniecia
Joan
Elena
Alvin
Charmaine
Chen Fang
Edward
Guo Wei
Huimin
Huiyi
Kevin
Lisa
Qiu Wen
Weng Guan
Yi Jie

designer joy.deprived
fonts&brushes x x x
images x
image hosting x
software
Adobe Photoshop CS3, Macromedia Dreamweaver 8.0