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Wednesday, September 05, 2007

10:43 AM

Actually, I wanted to blog about the Nonami workshop when Huiyao got molested by Nonami and I went to accompany Sean to buy a jacket, but something more interesting comes to mind.
AHHA. The big cbox flaming session.
The first thing that comes to mind is that wow, I finally got flamed. It was actually something I've been perversely looking forward to because after flaming so many people, it was pretty weird not to have some angry-pitchfork-holding individuals/ crowds return the favour.
Well, regarding my tags, I had to admit that I did feel very much like a hypocrite. I mean, sure, I tend to do stupid and conflicting things, but writing stuff like that is really hypocritical. You can even say I asked for it. So for once, I'm not defending myself (directly, anyway) for writing stuff like that.
Maybe on a subconscious level, I really want Lionel to get over his "oh I didn't become the BM, so I'm a total failure and I'm so lousy compared to Edwin" thoughts.* I know how it feels to not live up to your dreams and aspirations. Or being told you're not good enough to do something you know you can do. I know it all too well. (Oh, the irony!**)
Oh the other hand, it is also Lionel's fault for being so self-defeatistic about the whole politics affair because brooding over something stupid like this. So in my opinion, Edwin shouldn't suffer like that.
In any case, you can't say I'm happy when someone accuses you of something you hate being but 2 nice things came out of it:

1) I was ecstatic when I saw noname's and qfnn's tags. It was really sweet of you guys to defend me.

2) At least more than 3 people read my blog.

Disclaimers:
*I have no idea if Lionel feels this way, but it seems so, so again the power of assumption kicks in.
**someone from the trumpet section (no prizes for guessing) once told me, "wait for your year" when I once proposed some improvements for the band. And yeah, I'm still bitter.

By the way, I'm REALLY curious who ee is. Maybe some of you would like to contribute your i.p. addresses. We might discover Lionel's/Edwin's/Lionel's and Edwin's secret admirer/steady! Wow.
Alright, just joking. But I'm grateful for ee. Else, how would I know that I actually have friends who would defend me at all/no cost? *smiles*
By the way, my handphone number's 97325413 if you don't know me. I'll be glad to chat. (Ah, yes, the desperateness of Jiasheng.)

signed, jiasheng

19th Sept
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