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Sunday, March 18, 2007

1:50 PM

I'm feeling emo again.
(Oh wow, no surprise.)
But anyway. Last day of holiday. The camp has been like a painkiller for me. Now I've weaned off it, the harsh realities of life crashed back like a boulder on jelly.
Ewww.
But anyway, it was really great these three days, getting to know people with shared interests, laughing at their and my lame jokes, jumping around Toa Payoh, getting frustrated, getting scolded, stoning, accessing leadership issues, and a lot of thinking.
Still, I'm emo. Partly because, but least of all because I skipped band practice. It's the significance of the pon that I'm afraid.
Am I that fickle to switch interests so soon? Especially when I promised, swore, that I'll bring band back to glory.
Am I? This is so contradictory.
(Anyway, don't talk to me about it, I'll think it out myself.)
And there's the issue of passive/active leadership.
Active leadership - the act of a person being in a position of authority and leading his/her followers while being actively aware that he has the initiative and responsibility to do so.
Passive leadership - An individual leading his/her followers not on a basis of an authorized position.
Usually, active leaders get the most recognition, and can tap into resources easily and therefore are effective in organizing a passionate group. Passive ones, colloquially we call them 'popular people'.
I realize what kind of leader I am.
The part-time kind. -grins-
Yeah, I realize that only now. Let's have an analogy. I'm a piece of steel. I am a good conductor of heat. Therefore, I heat and cool quickly. So when heat (adversity) approaches, I react (switch into leading mode). When it diminishes (peace), I cool back into a cold hard lump of metal( I stone.)
So basically, you either get 'Jiasheng rocks!', or 'He stones.'
Yeah basically, that is my leadership personality. Might explain my fickle nature too.
Haha I think I'm the only person who describes himself as a piece of steel. Oh wow.
Alright! I'm start typing in sub-standard (aka my usual nice lengthy posts) again next time. So I'll go back to stoning, drawing eagles, designing tees, booking chalets, homework, poster, emails, prepare for scoldings, eating, drinking, being emo, sleeping, recharging, analyzing, reading forums, composing songs, the rest.
Wish me luck.
バンドとTXYの間、どれか。
選択がありすか。
わからないよ…

signed, jiasheng

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